In honour of the Canadian Thanksgiving yesterday, I thought it would be nice to share some positives that I am thankful for.
I am thankful for my amazing, bright, happy, loving, spirited, ham of a child. Parker is more than I ever imagined when I considered having children. Even after a bad day or night of whining or crying, no sleep, whatever, he gives me this smile that makes everything negative disappear. His cheeky little grin and infectious giggle make my heart melt and my arms open wide for the little squirmy creature before me. I hope I don't let him down.
I am thankful for my husband, who loves me in spite of my flaws, my need to be right, my need to over plan, over pack, over buy (groceries anyway). He loves me even though I frustrate him beyond belief, as I do him. I couldn't make it through the day without him. I only wish he knew exactly how much he means to me. I try to tell him, but I'm not certain he truly knows that he is my other half...sometimes, my better half....the Jekyll to my Hyde (or is it the other way? oh well!). I hope I don't let him down.
I am thankful for my brother. As most siblings do, we have loved and hated each other over the years and I wouldn't be me without him. Seeing Parker look up to him and love him as he does is heartwarming. I know I don't tell him enough, but he is the best big brother and I hope Parker is as good to any future siblings as my brother was to me....except for the time he wouldn't stop the car to let me pee, or the time he pushed me into that door....more like the time he felt so bad that I failed my driving test that he bought me a present to make me feel better. I hope I don't let him down.
I am thankful for my parents. As my birthday approaches, I realize today that they, too, are getting older. Shocking right? This isn't news, but it blew me away when I thought about it. My parents have always been my parents. They have always been there for me and I probably don't tell them how much it means to me. I have always tried to make it through life on my own terms, my own path, my own strength...I wouldn't have been able to do that without them. Without their strength, love and support, I would not have made it through anything. I would not have the courage to go forward without their support in case I fail. I hope they are proud of me and my accomplishments. I hope that I can be to Parker what they are to me. I hope I don't let them down.
I am thankful for having so many friends and family to support me and to share my laughter with. I hope everyone knows what they mean to me, though I am sure they will never know entirely the impact they have on my life. I am not always the best at sharing my feelings, I tend to be the shoulder for others instead of ask for a shoulder to cry on. I really am very lucky to have most of the people in my life...there are a few I could do without, some who are no longer here that I miss terribly, and others that I don't miss so much. I am thankful for all of them, good friends or bad, past or present...they have all made me who I am today. I may be flawed, but I think I am a pretty decent person at the core. I hope I don't let you down, and thank you!
