Confession - I don't know how to feel right now.

My mom has been dealing with cancer that returned last year after being cancer free for almost 4 years. Initially, she was responding to treatment, but that was relatively short lived. The nodes began to grow again and her treatment shifted. After 30 rounds of radiation, she is regaining movement and strength in her right arm that was immobile for a month or two from the lymph node that put pressure on a nerve bundle under her arm. At the same time, the cancer started shrinking and responding to new medication. This morning my mom was taken by ambulance to the hospital for breathing issues and we are waiting for results of a CT scan to determine if she has pneumonia or a blood clot in her lung.  I am an impatient person and am anxiously awaiting the results to know what happens next. Whatever happens, I just want my mommy to be around for a very long time.
I don't know what I would do without her!